livingthroughinfidelity

I never thought that I would have said that, because I have always felt that I was pretty much someone who stands on her own, doing whatever I can to get things done…..I am pretty independent. I loved him dearly, but I never expected that he was going to cheat on me. He turned out to be not only a gorgeous hunk of man and a hard working one too, but he also showed his true colors. He lied, cheated, and totally disrespected me as his wife. I don’t know how this happened to us. I loved him so totally much that maybe I lost myself somewhere along the way. I became HIS wife, instead of me.  I worked really hard to make our marriage work and to please him, but he still didn’t seem to care. The only thing that mattered was that other woman.  How could he be with her, then come home to me, smiling and wanting to be normal?  Was he crazy or what? I should have been stronger so that he couldn’t have hurt me the way that he did, but that is one of life’s lessons to me in life.  I need to stand up and learn how to love myself and take care of me….and not let anyone change me so much. Part of my upbringing was to take care of my husband, cling to him and to do as he wants.  Boy, that didn’t get me anywhere, did it?

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